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"finding a balance under pressure"
ABlinow aka ABE LENO reporting from the county of bristol in mass. 508. Taunton to be exact. New englands lovely silver city. Not trying to do the whole pity party poor me thing but just going to state where I am at. Since recovering from whipples in 2023 after years of being sick with low hemoglobin but you know functional and just aneimic, I lost my job due to poor performance at SLAP SUCKS. Then I sold myself short got a kitchen job and with my energy coming back I lost it due to getting angry and loosing my cool. Then I was in a good banquet job that closed for january febuary and Ive been getting more behind because last year I collected and it wasnt much. I also got a car payment this year so decided to try to get a new job. I ended up depressed saying something I didnt mean and going into pembroke hospital for 6 days during the time off last year I had done outpatient at fuller. I recently got into a good job and hope to keep it but all my bills have piled up and I have already taken help and I hate feeling like a drain. I may go attempt the street musician thing today. But I am making a beat now and trying to remember the good things in life. I think I need a second job other then door dash. Anyway peace out -ablinow
Angry and altered
Im sitting in the woods at a nice view and still barely feel sane, I wake up so angry, Feel like a fuck up I know theres no such thing really or wasted time, but the repitive pattern saying I wasted my twenties and thirties could never get out there or get a date repeats in my head. The more I try to seek attention and be and open book the more I tend to repell people. Even if I meet someone who understands and tolerates some self sabatoge it seems no one can love someone if they dont truly love themselves. And if you have not been able to or do not get there well oh well. This is me mr pity party loser, or this is the negative identity I have built my life around I dont even know. Girls obviously dont see my funny joyful side that has existed, They just see a mopey guy, Or an angry guy. And I guess thats my fault for failing to live life properly. Which makes me feel more angry at myslef. I will try to not do these things. Peace out
Well here I am bouncing back or going up another hill in the rollercoaster of life. I seem to have an unhealthy addiction for listening to "enlightening" material to kind of numb the background noise. I talk alot of weird stuff but I really live pretty childish and fearful. Anyway regardles I enjoy esoterica, the alchemist, and after skool on youtube. But recently saw agripa's diary (collab with skool) and its been cool. I didnt realize in some circles they are like really fearful of the occult and kind of hate on gnostics link it to whatever nonsense. I mean even if some people were horrible people and were any type of thing would that mean all people of that thing were horrible. Ahem XIANIST, anyway I digest... my world and feel like a POS most days. I really deep down think if I had lived a normal life formed relationships I wouldnt be such a weak seeker. But maybe its whats in the cards. I do not consider myself a visionary or able to manifest even a good lunch... so what am I doing here just writing BS for a few to read. Hopefully a few, Have good day everyone who does, PEACE OUT CUB SCOUT -ablinow
"something for someone to ignore"
Lately I think of someone too much. And I know deep down I will never be like this singer of a band she is in love with. Maybe she reads this but most likely she does not really take the time. I pour out my thoughts too much. It really kills that mystery and makes you just a weird loner type. People like people who arent too much. Maybe I need to heal myself. I got a lot of issues I worry my negative ways will drive another disease to strike or the old one to come back. I suffer from plenty of mental dysfuntion too. But in the end I shouldnt get hopes up and I do. I should know that it is not the thing I think it is, I am usually somone to fill the void. Deep down I wish someone liked my art my music my lyrics but I feel selfish saying this. Every time I like a girl Im too needy to honest too insecure. Thirty nine and been fucking up left and right my whole life. Hard to think someone will just like me the way they become infatuated with guys they like. Feel like those are the good guys and Im the fuck up. Maybe someone to fill the void not somone to love like that. Peace out -ablinow
"fool for falsehood"
Its diffcult to really cut through lifes cloud. The 4AG calls it the smoky mirror. Some say maya or illusion. Basically I think all of us are afflicted by the material realists that ruled our perceptions for some time. But deep down I think all of us know theres something to life. Some type of synchronicity. Interconnected web of life. Strings. So nowadays you can embrace the inner dream a bit and actually have science on your side."WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW" check out that for some new age cult stuff. Just playing its cool. I like to take a break from certain channels and then go binge watch. Im doing that with the alchemist but she doesnt have really long videos. Then it goes to "eternalised" another great channel. Look out for all the AI and programmed narrator videos on Jung or Watts or anything where its just an endless loop of "what waking up means" or something. Maybe there is value. Lately Ive been dabbling in depth psychology. Jerry Marzinsky. Causism. The mace energy healing method. Seems interesting. I really think we need to do more to help skitzo and psychotic people. It seems maybe even some forces could be used to excabberate some mental illness. Whether intentionally or not is the question, But poor diet, lack of spiritual gnosis, lack of nature. Another cool thing is "morita therapy" i forget what it was used for but maybe I will look it up. I get stuck in my own thoughts worries and cares. I dont dream I worry and struggle with being a whole human. I dont feel close to anyone really maybe kind of close but not super close but maybe thats how we all feel. Fun fact I read a comment and someone who claimed to work for a gov agency said they had real interest in DNA and ancient mystery schools. The idea of the seeker and the victim are basically to be studied. Maybe one of these is feared and oppressed. I do consider my self a slight seeker(of truth) but mainky a fool for falsehood, someone who falls into the matrix daily failing greatly. I guess its just hard to really believe in a real mystical view on life. But then again someone who tries is still trying, And someone who has said "I am not god". They may be the victim. I was gonna say there is no god, but I think of the fifth agreement. He says if the snake said, "eat this apple, dont you wann be like god" and we were like "nah Im good I already am like god" we could have been good. Talking about the tree of knowledge being the tree of death. Death of the self and the oneness maybe. But instead we fell for it like "ah yeah I want to let me eat it".... But personally I think this is a reference to the amanita muscaria and other funguy that potentially could guided human intellect (stoned ape). Check out the pharmacratic inquistion for a study on plant medicine and drugs in worldy cultures throughout history. Peace be with the peeps. Signing off ABELENO ablinow.
"back to xander"
You know me 39 year old super positive person. Who just cannot wait to live forever. I have always be a lonely loser type chasing girls that dont want me. Lately I fell hard for one and even ended up in a psych ward because I chose to care too much and she loves another. Then after swearing I wouldnt I end up right back at square one because I belive a lie that she is falling for me. But in reality shes obessed with a guy who likely doesnt care about her equally. And some nice guy will just be undesirable. I thought we connected. And maybe we did. But it was not enough. I rush home from work friday to hope to talk to her. I invite her over on VDAY shes never been here I only go there. And surely she ignores me and then drops the bomb. Luckily Im already Xander the cancer a toxic parasitc loser who is so negative its sickening. Peace
"back in hack"
I fell on the ice and literally am just recovering about 3 weeks later. I have a brand new hania adventurer bag I cant wait to really use. I really hate winter and the heat bill it brings. I have cleared an area to hack here but I may go to the gym. There is a pizza place downstairs but they are closed sunday. I really need to keep my vibe right, I remember when I got my health back I was hacking just to kick it, not for the tricks, Although I want to get better at freestyle sometimes I loose sight of the old game and just having fun. In some ways the hacky sack really helped me a ton and saved me as a teen. I remember I just would kick that thing and keep it up and never even saw any tricks. Those were the days but like some in the group I was the one who couldnt get enough kicking, or just wanted to be better. Then when we moved to chepachet I saw some freestyle footbag videos. They blew my mind and not like todays videos it was youtube poor video in some ways but I would go out on my bike. I couldnt clipper for my life and it just baffled me how people made this stuff look easy. Now years later I can do some basic stuff but I want to just train to be a little better at footbag each day. And music I really should be playing more of my instruments. One step at a time. Peace out -ABLiNOW
"digesting the poison"
Shoutout to occaroWisdom on youtube for inspiring this title. I relate to his video I just saw about awakening without the heart based consciousness. Ive heard in the whole kundalini yoga school of thought one can become mad if attempting to awakeing their serpent energy without the proper mental emotional and physical training. Similarly but obviously as a collective we have likely been mad for a long time. Maybe thats why the madness comes, because humanity as a whole is not always in balance. Regardless, without going into whats good and whats bad...seeds of light and shadow... simply just trying to express my own current struggle. I just got a new gig and my tendency to overthink, and question things can hinder my ability to flow with life naturally. That being said I have had a lot of training (39 years) and am determined to keep trying to live. My whole life has been one big space out getting lifted etc, but I am trying to really bring this AB+ thing to fruition. As much as I want to own my own shit and sell it which I still can do, people need to hear you first, So I may try to get some tracks on apple music, even if it is a giant entity. Peace out -ablinow
"The age of emo-death"
As someone who has lived as an addict and person with supressed emotions I would honestly say it is true what they say "feeling is healing". Easier said then done and sometimes you dont know what you need to release your own blockages. Sometimes its a song sometimes just time alone on a long silent drive who knows everyone is different. But I do feel most of us nowadays want to live in a type numbness. It sucks feeling shitty emotions especially when you have let them simmer or boil on the back burner long enough. But nothing is worse then acting like you dont need to feel things like you can magically detach more then actual possible. You can build a wall for sure. I was never an emo kid, I think it was a little after my age but I liked the grunge stuff alice in chains or nirvana and classic rock and metal. I realize though later I was somewhat of an emo type. I personally always went against the grain so wouldnt listen to what the other people where listening to no matter what I think a lot of that was also a way of protecting myself because I was probably scared of most people at school, Although I got by pretty well and did that whole fake it til you make it type thing, Everyone is there own person and shines in their own right I believe. Today I got a job finally and I am a good cook. Praise reality. peace out -ablinow
"return to four"
Recently Ive learned the term glass child and went down that wormhole. Its interesting stuff and makes me think of things that Gabor Mate has said and the four agreements. That we all have innate worth. I have been struggling to find work. Ive always struggled with loneliness. Back when I first read the four agreements it helped a ton. I also would listen to it again on my drives when I had this thing called whipples disease and was very worried about my health. But I do conisder myself a seeker, not a visionary or a mystic.. but some type of songwriter who can articulate reality in some form. I really think my dark night is almost over(should be hired somewhere this week) and I know money isnt everything. But security, as manufactured as it is, does help. Therefore I am going to listen to the four agreements everyday if I can. Couldnt hurt. I mean maybe not everyone will accept the smokey mirror pure light type stuff but the rational aspects can be profound. And I find myself breaking four often not being much of a warrior there. Then again I could be an unconscious zombie watching a circus eating bread . Although I just had some daves killa bread.
"peas-ants"
It just occured to me the word peasants breaks down to peas and ants. Both easily squashed. Peasants can live off peas. And they may live with ants. And work as ants do mindlessly for the queen. But what if we got to decided as poor folks what to call ourselves. What would be similar but not easily squished. A hard food, and a hard insect.... I propose this.. introducing the PINA-TICK. As prick-ish as a pineapple, and not easily ripped off or squashed like the famous arachinds know as ticks. So if you do not want to be a peasant any longer fine. I personally will continue with my own lunar tick stlye, but anyone who wants to follow me can consider themselves some type of tick. Martian tick, lunar tick, pinatick, someone with ticks, someone who has certain behavioral ticks... or someone who wants to indentify as a tick, because indentify as a cat or even a mammal is soooooo 2025... what are you a dinasaur.... tomorrow I could identify as a table lamp to be different. How dare you judge! Obviously Im half kidding. But to anyone who does go by lamp it is okay. We all have our thing. PEACE BE WITH YOU OVER AND OUT
"Work to die"
Usury has entered its finest age. There used to be a time where living and dying in debt was questioned. Now you pretty much get a bill coming out of the womb and are told if you dont make money your innate worth and value has gone down. I saw a sticker for cancer it said "YOU CAN not be REPLACED" and there were different colors and levels so you could almost miss the not be. Its funny cuz in hypnotherapy they dont use contractions and stuff side note. But I saw it quickly and read the other way around at fist. And it really doesnt matter what some bumper sticker says. The wolrd speaks for itslef. Children are taugh young that if you provide if you contribute you are more valuable then the sick and weak person. We are still in an age where we can barely care for ourselves so taking care of our weak and sick is too much to ask. But as a sovereign beings who wants to control our own destiny. What can we do for the future. Some work to live. Some live to work. Some work to die. But tis life. STAY POSI. peace -ablinow ... "
"Legal Lies"
Most people who know me know I am not a fan of the modern soul-less society. I consider myself a rebel and a true thinker in an age of mindless sleeper. My aim is to awaken those who need it. One thing I constantly bring up is the social issue of drug prohibition. There is a law enforcement group called LEAP that believes in legalizing all drugs. This comes from the idea of ending prohibition similar to how it ended with alcohol. The problem with making something illegal is it can make an extremely profitable underground market. This big money can sometimes ifluence the world. Anyone who has seen the ozarks just think fiction mimmicks reality. Im in taunton and many people here spend there lives addicted to drugs or spending tons on treatment centers. I dream of a world where we dont sell people into addiction or profit off their withdrawal.
"culture or cult-lure"
Once again I am just rambling. Recently I have been listening to a lot of different type of psychology videos. I guess what I would call it is alternative psychology. Lately Ive been watching things on archetypal psych. I think the guys name is Hillman. Basically I am down with anything that counters the mainstream. I feel like the culture is designed to make you loyal to the delusional lost cause the world is on. Not to sound negative but like this man says we have had a hundred years of talk therapy and different types of psychology. The idea the we need to keep healing individually could in some ways keep us from working collectively. Leaning into the insantiy and the emotions we feel is key in my opion. Otherwise they can never pass. But especially repressed ones for years they may need to be felt for a long time. These are just ramblings but I believe it is deeper then just the mind. And some think since the material realist world view has taken over that the mind or consciousness is contained within our skull. Before some of the modern world view there was a thing called vitalism. I really like the four agreements which comes from old mexican shamanism and stuff. Signing off Peace out, 'new-skool-fool' -ABLiNOW
"Druggie Dropout Dumbass, Lowlife, Loser, in lack"
Anyone who knows me knows I speak like a wierdo. Ive always done this weird obiously looney thing I think really as a way to isolate but I do not consider myself dumb or the education system to be perfect unless you consider the goal to be automated slave workers. I generally mock myself sometimes with true self hate but sometimes to beat someone to the punch or destroy the power in it. I do know deep down insecurity is confidence in your complete lack of confidence. As you can see words can be tricky. This is the first lesson of the occult. What you call a bird is a word for a bird aka "bird bird bird is the word" Reminds me of a song idea "dont feed the birds" inspired by a sign. I gotta stay up stay writing. Hopefully raps and stuff but even this is better then nothing. Hello world, ABLINOW says its okay to be a fool. Anyone farmiliar with the heyoka or the fool in history they were respected characters. I have a few songs working on. I leak shit on my abe leno youtube @abpositive508. I have other youtubes I will likely leak of ranting and nature videos. I started youtube for fun way back, Its cool that we can all see stuff really. But i want to own a website of my own with all my music someday soon. later -ABLiNOW
"modern wage slaves"
I have always had a decent place in the kitchen as cook and have recently become unemployed due to seasonal lay off and my own personal choices. Right now I am dashing to get by(barely) and I have to be grateful for the cash I do have and the ones helping me. But I cannot fail to realize we live in a monetary matrix that ensures people do not unite in the work place. The modern delivery services have perfected this and the new generation welcomes this form of serfdom as a great thing for our culture. The idea of people helping people is great. In a perfect world we could exchange numbers with the homes we dash to and provide grocery and food delivery with no middle man. This would require trust. Or maybe a new type of application built on true philanthropy. I see old ladies ordering grocery. People in the hood ordering food. Sometimes workers at work or mothers who are overworked and lack time. The service itself is a good thing. The problem lies in the workers being exploited and poor people ending up paying more and more to get by. oh hey also fuck the jab and super tech shit trying to make us all uplinked idiots with no souls.
"vital life force infusioin"
Just writing to try to ease my lonely depression and such. After my staycation I said I would be happy to just be home with my cats. But the financial woes lack of work, and obiously the lack of any chances of getting a girl always get me down. Really I just wish someone was like me I feel like such an alien all the time. Sounds cliche but I dont know Im 39 I did karaoke yesterday saw girls dancing being fun and here I am a performer but also an uptight socially anxiouos person. Feels like nothing will ever magically switch. I will always be trying to hard and desperate for a chance. Meanwhile all that is off putting and makes anyone think, why didnt this guy ever get a gf... I did have one at 31 and it wasnt all horrible but most who know me know I stayed due to the convience even when it became unhealthy. Anyway if I was able to make some money I would feel a little bit better about everything in general. Peace out, -ABLiNOW
Exiting the matrix next stop euphoria~land.... Just kidding consider this a foreword. I am not a firm believer of myself to be from outer space or anything specifc. I am a very sketpical person deep within as well as I am also someone to trust the universe. Just like anyone I have my rigid conformity to the modern world. Ive been determined to experiment with creativity more since I heard of the four agreements. But lets this be a disclaimer that this is for entertainment mainly of myself. And therapy. So dont take anything I say too seriously. I am simply documenting my record on my own file from my perspective. If it gives me something to do and I dont get as insanely depressed I think it will be a good thing . Also I may revise this later in life and cherry pick things but the grammar is going to be very LOL quick typing style not actually proper. Im into hip hop and I can type faster in this sense. As I see things I can correct them. Also theres a link to my rap song "no way" and a background music file to play. Forgive my primitve coding skills.
To anyone who wants to work together musically as an artist rapper or just in general get contact with me for collaboration. My email is ablinow86@gmail.com. I am hoping that like some claim when you find your path you will also find others on a similar life mission. I really have always felt real hip hop in my soul, GIFT OF GAB r.i.p. seriously take a moment ... KRS is still here but GAB was something else imo. So my mission is to the real deal hip hop. Ive has apprehension to challenge paradigm as a pale guitarist type. But the soul cannot be denied. I could put my phone here or something too cuz Im real like that. Maybe someday more then a few people will see this. This is also an example of the time effort and use of the interweb can lead to amazing things as we all know. Power to the poeple. I will be posting some random stuff soon for my sanity .
blog comming soon
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Ablinow "Ramblings of a lunar tick: stories of a parasite from the moon" moondate:13-1-2620 Greetings fellow travelers my name is Ablinow. Abe Leno also works. My goverment name is "Alexander Blinow" issued from birth in the corporate prison place known as the united snakes. The origins of modern technological dwelling space we now call the interwed, before the era of paranoid need for security from your neighbor it was common to use your first initial and your last name and maybe your birth year as a screen name. Over the years I have also developed a musical alias known to most as "ab+: Ay be postive". And as most know it is good advice I give to somne but myself struggle with negative thining patterns as well as general psychological imbalance. I find it quite interesting that most people i encounter in the healing community and work in mental health often are not farmiliarized with Jungs work like the shadow, the archetypes, anima/animus as awell as other things. Maybe I am just some Jungian fanboy but over the years Ive also been a Terrence MCkenna fan so you could say Im in that "stoned ape camp" of general weirdo artist types who arent afraid to be a weird human.
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From Bristol County massachusetts. I am simply documenting things as someone I look up to KRS one says we should write our history. And with this git hub I can update things even if it is ghetto and I cant get my plant picture to work right(someday). I tend to dabble and also go on binge type learning adventures and at one point I was doing codecademy for web stuff and still want to keep learning coding someday. I am typing much faster then I would write but I also think in the event of a technological shut down this would be not available. I could print these things. I consider my self a student of life, and hopefully a teacher of nice. I hold in a lot of anger and pain at times but Ive heard feeling is healing. I intend to go more into the DBTworkbook under my laptop right now after this a bit. As I grow older I consider myself trying to learn more about esoterica and mysticism anything with the occult in life. All these words kind of are hard to absorb and make sense of, I consider myself a seeker, but a lost soul who sometimes just pretends to seek, But the revelations I feel myself seem to align sometimes I think with things that I hear from that lady Sara Elkhaldy ; the alchemist on youtube. She was talking about ignorance is bliss. And in a way Ive thought myself more awareness equals more pain at times. A wider spectrum for feeling lower lows and higher highs. I think it is more comfortable at times to stay in that middle ground if you will. But one guy in my awakening discord channel his name is hopeISdope. He drops some stuff its hard to explain but you know that far out philosophy type . Some of them were implying Alan Watts to be generic it seemed and I think we are all humans in there capable of our own bias. I think about how I watch stuff on youtube about Jung, or philosophy in general and feel I dont want to be decieved. I enjoy the channel: esoterica. With Dr Justin Sledge. Hes an academic but its hard to wrap your heard around alot of these far out concepts. But he also makes jokes and so does sara I wouldnt want someone with no humor and I think we know that shit is a gift from the source. I recently had an unexpected hiatus and intend to work more at being my authentic self on a mission from reality. Break the matrix by creating our own plantation of ideas into the univeral dopeness that flows through everything. I Knew when I first started writing raps it felt right, I havent got to my peak but its coming. I wanna start a website where i can sell some songs . I know this is done unporoffesionally and most of my stuff is, But I think I can work it all into shape through efforts and refining process. I think of not uploading this but in the event of my death idk feels right, I just fell on some ice and feel im fine but also you never know. But so far seems Ive been sticking around for a purpose. Time to find that thing, or do this thing. or something
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moondate 14-1-2620
"crazy cat laddie"
After my recent hiatus I am happy to call myself a crazy cat laddie. This means someone who is a bit inane and spends a lot of time alone with his cats. I am 39 and I have had one GF when I was 31. My twenties were filled with drinking and chasing women unsuccessfully. I know I dont want to go crazy over being lonely. But I also know I want to keep trying to get out there. Its difficult to not become discouraged and think "women only like tall guys" or any general negative statement. I know this isnt true and I have had some success in ways but tend to be a traumatized mind overthinker werid nervous broken person who doesnt bode well in the dating pool, Maybe I could re work my online profile but I also try to appear genuine, My whole life Ive been a people pleaser afraid to step on toes. Afraid of conflicts. It seems girls would prefer someone with a backbone who doesnt shy away from difficult situations with people. Over the years I have learned to communicate but it feels artifical at times. And at other times I am guilty of emotional breakdowns where it appears my unconscious woes overwhelm my state of being. Growing up my sister was a very strong persona, filled with anger, and depression mostly due to the lack of a father figure. My mother struggled trying to mantain order in the household and I must have adjusted to living without making waves. My father moved to floria when when I was like 11 or something. He had a business which they didnt pay the unconstituitonal income tax and was shut down. Then him and his new family moved to Boca Raton to restart with the help of his inlaws. I held a lot of anger but as a grown man child myself now I can see how if giben the chance I could impregnate someone and do the wrong things as a father. We didnt talk for years but when I recovered from whipples disease we reconnected. I remember him saying you know "men usually think with their d*ck" or somthing like that. I wondered if that refered to prior or later relations or both. Either way the truth hurts but I know the feeling to well as a lonley old person looking for someone, and at the same time not getting many opportunites you tend to not be too choosey. And lets all be real anyone who is from the sincere true self and isnt afraid to be weird and abnormal in society, this may sabatoge some opportunites. Then again those opportunies may not last due to a fake base of foundation. All I know is I do not want to be seperated from my cats again. And they dont want that I feel either. Over and Out.
ABe LEno
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ablinow AB+ "message to the meek" 14-1-2620
This is just a little rant for the ones who need it. The people who may have heard of my music just recently or maybe never and ended up here however. "Don't you worry nothin's under control, it's just an illusion, a lie you've been sold" -ablinow. Thats a quote from a song I wrote called "we're gonna live". I do it for the love not the money so whatever comes out it is enough for me. I sometimes feel like an imposter when it comes to surrending to life and rolling with the hard punches, but Ive been somewhat tested in my 39 years and here I am still preachin the positive. Granted Ive always seen myself talk about balance of negative and positive over the years. Never be fake positive make sure you feel your pain and express your negativity. In Jungian psychology dysfunction mostly occurs when people avoid the pain they are supposed to feel. Everyone knows its good to let it flow, but once we have a block it gets hard to open the flow. It is okay to open the flow. Everything will be okay. Even if its not "okay". Nothing matters as much as we feel it does. Life and death are cousins and children of the same universe. One thing we need to realize is the pain is never as bad as we make it out to be in our minds. The worst pain is the fear of pain in my opinon. Nobody wants to feel it but through laugher and perserverence we can tolerate pain and still make great choices. I had a rare disease called whipples. So perhaps I could be a 'wounded healer". Im open to it but not trying to explain myself or slap a label on whatever I am. I can be toxic and negative in extreme amounts at times. But I can also be funny, healing, and postitive. Trying to find a balance.
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15-1-2620 "DIary from the badlands" Turtle Island aftermath. Ablinow here. Abe-original, intelex being hybrid agent ABe86 reporting from zone 58 known as the cursed county. Taunton a great place to good buisness. A horrible place to exist. Half kidding of course. I love the city for the art but boy do I see the suffering. And when I let my mind go off on the kind of human experiments that go on its incredible. I am your local footbag fanatic rap character ABe LEno aka Alexander Blinow in real life. I am just a regular short order cook on a hip hop mission with a bit of a side struggle in the weed life. I really enjoy Mendo Dope. This idea is working for me to express myself but I also think because its public I should try to get the most instantaneous use out of it. My theory is if you live life right from the heart and make your own record of things people will understand you to the best of their ability. I try to not live in fear and I do not consider my self fearless. But maybe I should give myself some credit for facing some fears at tines. Not a big snake person maybe one day I will get into holding them. I have friend with a python. Peace out stay POSI find HOBBIES -ablinow
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I want to add that Mckenna notes there are OLD SHAMAN and BOLD SHAMAN but no OLD BOLD SHAMAN.
